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I’ll admit, I am kind of surprised at the fact I have been so disappointed at not becoming pregnant quickly. Justin has been pretty surprised too.
Up until last year, I can’t say that becoming a mother has been one of my greatest desires.
I’ve never been a “children” kind of person.
Getting down on a child’s level has never been easy for me.
My mom has always called me her “old soul”. I’ve always had a serious disposition, and tend to behave much older than I am. Being silly, and “childlike”, can be foreign to me.
My patience runs very thin too. Teaching a K-3 class, I am around children a lot. I’ve experienced firsthand how much training is required, to help them overcome their natural tendencies to be disobedient and selfish. That has made me shamefully afraid I will not be able to handle behavior issues well with my own children, and become tired of them quickly.
But the LORD has been working on my heart. And by HIS grace, I finally see children as a great blessing. And the most important work.
Yes, they require A LOT of work. But GOD’s word says they are one of HIS greatest blessings. I mean, where else in life can you have the possibility of directly influencing GOD’s kingdom, than with raising children that will prayerfully live lives to serve HIM?
Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.
As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.
Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate. Psalm 127:3-5
I guess, knowing that children are a great blessing is what makes it so hard for me to give up that desire of wanting them.
But GOD can use me in other ways. HE knows what is best for my life.
I will trust HIM.
And I truly feel at peace, knowing HE knows best. :)
What is the LORD teaching you in your life?
Have a wonderfully blessed day! Thanks for stopping by!
Angel
I can definitely relate to this. Before I was married, it didn't really matter to me if I had my own children or not. I never related to under 5yr olds very well. I liked the older ones and had my heart set on working in an orphanage. But instead God's will was for me to marry and stay in my own country. After I was married I started wanting to be pregnant pretty soon. But since I hadn't really desired to be a mother, I was worried whether I would be a good mother or not. But I found that it came naturally! I now have 3 under 5yrs. It's definitely not easy and you realize how much patience you are lacking, but on the other hand there's something different about having your own children. You love them more and they are special since they are yours! Don't be discouraged, sometimes it just takes time for them to come. But I do hope you don't have to wait too long.
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